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Today is our 2nd fast cruise on the ship. No we aren't going anywhere, it is as if we are getting the ship underway no one can leave and no one can talk on there cell phones. Basically we are pretending we are out to see. Right now we are still in Newport News, VA it's kinda boring but i can't complain. I am working on getting my car now. I have a few main goals before the ending of september 2007
 

• Get a cellphone in my name no more mooching off of mommy no more time to grow up
• Get a car
• Get my apartment
• Get married
• Travel the world on the USS GEORGE WASHINGTON

Basically start my growing up process. I actually like the people i work with they are pretty cool. there is a petty officer sitting here right now his name petty officer saucedo he is a 1st class petty officer and he is caool as alls hell. He's leaving us soon and he's going on the uss Battan. that's the ship maegans on i wish him all the best.

I was suppose to leave since Monday here's what happened

 On Sunday July 17, 2005 I woke up in tears the same way I went to bed because of the thought that I wasn't going to see eeryone anymore, and everyone was calling and saying there goodbyes sniffing snot boogies in there noses. Maegan and I were crying at the sound of the kids voices bye Shrese and Maegan we love you. Then Bri (Breion) came over as my shoulder to cry on. why'd he do that he left the house soaked. Breion is like my big brother you know, keeping me outta trouble away from boys and being there whenever i need him. Then my Mommy came over. It seemed like all she wanted was her rings. She showed no emotions. not a tear, not a sigh....

Shaun is the bestest person in the whole wide world.....

While im in the navy Im going to miss  SR. Sladden, Chad that's been my Homey for a while

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
It's killing me that i can't find my contact case anywhere in this house.

Ok now that's out of my system, on with today's biznes...

Today I recieved a phone call from Dialouge Direct for an interview yay!!!  I can't wait...If I do get the job then i'll really be able to accompany Maegan to her prom, shes only going because I've never been to one. With $500 a week i will be able to do the things i wanted to do like getting my permit, setting myself up before i leave for bootcamp, and hangout with my friends with out having to worry about money issues.

It beats working Sabarro's anyday, that place had cat size rats. I was terrified when one ran over my foot. I was scared I'd get rabies ewwwwwww. The only way i would want to catch rabies is if i'm saving someone that I am helplessly in love with, just like in There Eyes Were Watching Gods by Zora Hurston.

I picked up my cousins from school and we had so much fun. Alicia helped me cook...it was funny because i'm not much of a cook and she was of big help...We made franks and beans and they were slammin'. They told me i made it better than Jason you know they had my head the size of the grand canyon right. I helped them with there homework and we listened to music while playing American idol it was hilarious. Then at 8 i put them to bed. Man i love those little rugrats.

Now I'm talking to my homeboy marvin he told me to put this in my journal and close it.

 Anthony6945 [2:03 A.M.]:  hey lover girl
ReeseReese18 [2:03 A.M.]:  Wah a gwon
Anthony6945 [2:04 A.M.]:  nothing
Anthony6945 [2:04 A.M.]:  how u doing
ReeseReese18 [2:04 A.M.]:  i'm fine 
ReeseReese18 [2:04 A.M.]:   and yourself
Anthony6945 [2:04 A.M.]:  aight
Anthony6945 [2:04 A.M.]:  what u doing
ReeseReese18 [2:04 A.M.]:  just writing in my journal
Anthony6945 [2:04 A.M.]:  oh
ReeseReese18 [2:05 A.M.]:  i'm almost done 
Anthony6945 [2:05 A.M.]:  it ends on me
ReeseReese18 [2:05 A.M.]:  lol..no
Anthony6945 [2:05 A.M.]:  and then i spoke to marvin. That's the last thing your going to write before you close it.
Anthony6945 [2:05 A.M.]:  de end

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It's Official I think I'm Crazy....so many things running through my mind i can't control myself.

There are so many things that go on around me that makes me in to the person I do not want to be...I remember when i didn't have a care in the world and I was just the type of person to brush things off my shoulder, now i let it get to me...Why Shrese Why submit to this....

I find myself falling in Love yet once again with someone i don't think i should be in love with...(Name Goes Here)

Ever since my last relationship things for me relationship wise has not been going to well, but when I finally find someone he's so perfect

• He makes me laugh at things I thought nothing in this world could ever patch up.
• Although we do have disagreements he's always on my side.
• He's always there when I need him.
• He shares everything with me. ( yes ladies and gentlemen down to the last bite of his sincker bar)
• Just the thought of him puts a smile on my face.

The other day I was hanging out with him and his ex came over. It never bothered me before about a guy chilling with his ex, but she bothered me. I trust him, it's her I didn't trust. She came over knowing he had a girlfriend but didn't know it was me we was trying to keep it on the low. She was all in his face trying to play fight and he kept brushing her off of him telling her to chill. Why are there so many trifling people out there?. Then he had to scream on her one time. I don't think my girlfriend would like it that you keep touching me, she then proceeded to say what your girl don't know won't hurt her she's not here, she can't say shit to me. He laughed and said shes closer than you think. She was shocked She almost tripped over her Jaw 4 times standing in one spot it was hilarious. The look on her face was Priceless. I know i shouldn't be upset because he did tell her. I'm upset because I was actually jealous for the first time. I think i took my feelings to a whole other level...but that's how im gonna leave it for now...

I need friends... lol...Ok that sounded real desperate...I have friends...It's just that, I can't say that there boring it's just there predictable at times...I always know where to find them when I need them, but when i need someone to talk to I ususally have to wait until 7:00p.m. to 12:00p.m....pretty predictable huh?

Tomorrow I have to pick up aunty suzy's kids yay! I get to spend time with them before i leave, i should call jason to come and hang out.